i have to pee, if anyone cares.
lately i have found myself suspended in a mirkie mesh of doubt and despair. i wonder how many times i have been stuck here. i got Green Day’s new cd for christmas, American Idiot. it is quite nice. my current postition/location is the up (upper penissula of michigan). despite popular belief it is not that bad as long as you stay in escanaba. otherwise it is about 95% state and national forest flourising with deer, wolves and incest. Cold also but quaint and therefore relaxing in contrast to the despair welling up inside me. i am putting my hope in Jesus wich makes thing more better for me as he ordains peace with me in the midst of despair. Also, i am at my cousins house and they are watching Mars Attacks. I am beginning to grow in love all the more as i find that the more of it that is given the more there is, it, unlike material possesions, does not dispate or minimize in quanity as you give it out. oh yes, i have a recent new found romance with the song “sex and candy” or whatever it is called but hopefully you know what i am talking about.
Words of Encouragement: Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you. Hebrew 13:5