Peru entry 15:

I am wandering in Limbo now.  Dancing on a lonely thread between masculinity and feminity.  I am like a periwinkle particle stuck between forms.  I am a ghost particle.  Slipping in and out.  From sanity to insanity and enlightment to ignorance.  I am weeping, alone in the dark.  My faint light diminishs and I close my eyes.  Whoe will save me from this akward form, this form that does not belong in the former or the later.  I live in the grey line between ying and yang.  And yet in confusion I can’t seem to stumble to either side.  I am a lone periwinlke particle in this grey abode.  Alone?  I call on His name,and even in the grey abbyys He picks me up.  Above it all. 

About minuiperiannath

Name: Spencer Wentland College: North Central University Year: Senior Major:Intercultural Studies My story of meeting Jesus in short: Not many weeks after I was born my parents baptized me into the Christian faith at First English Lutheran Church in my hometown, Appleton, WI. There they renewed their promises to renounce the devil and his ways, the world and evil and raise me the same way teaching me to love and fear the Lord, the Lord's Prayer, the Ten Commandments, the Creeds and when of reading age to put the Holy Bible in my hands and all the while, with the church community, instruct me in the Christian faith. My parents weren't perfect but they did fulfill the vows they made at my baptism. I had my own more personal experience with the Lord around the age of seven when I followed Jesus out of the Gospels to a "quiet, lonely place" in my backyard with the hope to do whatever Jesus did there. Without realizing it or ever being taught how to "receive Jesus into your heart" it happened quite like that even seeing a mental vision of Jesus and knowing I need to welcome him into my heart and let him sit on the throne of my life. I've never been the same since then and the Lord has kept his promise to be with me "always." I confirmed what my parents chose for me in a public confession of faith and the ritual of believer's baptism at a local swimming school where the Assemblies of God church my mom attends used to do their baptisms. I've never regretted a life with Jesus; life has always been richer, deeper and fuller because of it. About Me: Ha that's a funny question, and a popular one today. Well, if you really want to know "all about me" you will have to meet me. For starters I am hard to put in simple categories and often find myself tumbling between labels; i.e. introverted and extroverted, strong and weak, intuitive yet a rationalist, introspective and social, unique and individual yet needing people and empathetic. I belong to and am part of the Way and that is probably the most defining important part of my being. (Acts 24:14) As a God lover in the Way of Jesus Christ I long to see and embrace all things and people in his love for his glory. Creative people and places energize me. I enjoy and appreciate art and artists and like to contribute and collaborate in making my own art at times. I need my own time and spend a lot of time in contemplation- this is where I get recharged and new vision and vitality for life. A con of my personality is my ill attempts to understand everything about everything. At the same time I also get energy from others and love to be sociable. I make matrix like connections in my mind and although my comments often are perceived as random too me they are very connected to something. To me connection and harmony are very important and I believe the truth brings that out. The last few years have been filled with learning, studying and meeting wonderful people. Copenhagen, Escanaba, Nagasaki, and now back to Minneapolis! So excited to learn, grow and finish my last year at university! Call: I feel strongly called by the Lord to work and give myself as missionary of love to the Japanese people. As the Lord leads I hope to take a missionary assignment through ELCA Global Mission teaching English and serving in congregational mission and leadership in Japan. Eventually I would like to serve as an apostolic worker planting boiler rooms (missional/monastic communities) around the Japanese archipelago with a bunch of other Jesus lovers in international, incarnational bands of friends. About this blog: This blog is for my Church Administration and Personal Finance class. I'm looking forward to interesting and practical conversation and learning that will help develop my leadership and organizational skills for however and whatever takes shape out of the Lord's call.

14 responses »

  1. dont listen to anybody spencer. you know where you stand with things and i respect you for that. i like being your friend. God is amazing man. you know that. 🙂

  2. i really can’t plan or go on the trip. i have so much going on. next summer i’m going to france, and i need to be working because i need money for college.

  3. spencer darling i love you.. your such a good kid.. and on behalf of kimberly.. i’ll always stand up for you. You are an amazing friend, and i’m always glad that you are my friend.  It’s good that you know what you want in life, and where you want to go… as long as you have somewhat of a destination in mind ..nothing can really hold you back. Don’t ever ever change Spencer.
    Kids will always be kids, they can be very respectful at times and they can be very immature and dumb on other times. They only do and say the things they do to impress other people, becuz they’re having some issues of their own. So they have a tendancy to take it out on others.
    But I will always be there for you. *^_^* So if you ever have troubles/problems let me know.
    God Bless.

  4. FYI NIck manderfield is a self centered prick that loves himself excessively. . . Your a sweet kid. . . Dont listen to him

  5. Hey,
    I’m glad I got to hang out with you at the game for a while. I’ve missed talking to you and have often wondered what you’re up to. Anyway, I hope I see you soon and that things are going well for you.

  6. i’m katie, i use to go to appleton east but now i am in college. i know a lot of people who went to rennisance…which i should have gone to also but i didnt hear about it until it was too late..
    ehh okay bye

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