identity. everyday.

If Sarah had gone to God’s family wall, she would have found her portrait hanging alongside her brothers. It had been there all along. If she thought her frame was empty until the day she had a baby, she couldn’t have been more mistaken. Sarah was part of God’s family, a true daughter—not an in-law?born to bear God’s image, born to advance his cause. Her identity as a woman was anchored to God, and nothing could ever take that away from her. She was encircled in his love every bit as much as Abraham, only she was so distracted by her barrenness, she couldn’t see how much she mattered to God.

from zondervan. everyday.




You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.
At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.
And at other times, you are wise like an iris.
And more than you wish, you’re a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

About minuiperiannath

Name: Spencer Wentland College: North Central University Year: Senior Major:Intercultural Studies My story of meeting Jesus in short: Not many weeks after I was born my parents baptized me into the Christian faith at First English Lutheran Church in my hometown, Appleton, WI. There they renewed their promises to renounce the devil and his ways, the world and evil and raise me the same way teaching me to love and fear the Lord, the Lord's Prayer, the Ten Commandments, the Creeds and when of reading age to put the Holy Bible in my hands and all the while, with the church community, instruct me in the Christian faith. My parents weren't perfect but they did fulfill the vows they made at my baptism. I had my own more personal experience with the Lord around the age of seven when I followed Jesus out of the Gospels to a "quiet, lonely place" in my backyard with the hope to do whatever Jesus did there. Without realizing it or ever being taught how to "receive Jesus into your heart" it happened quite like that even seeing a mental vision of Jesus and knowing I need to welcome him into my heart and let him sit on the throne of my life. I've never been the same since then and the Lord has kept his promise to be with me "always." I confirmed what my parents chose for me in a public confession of faith and the ritual of believer's baptism at a local swimming school where the Assemblies of God church my mom attends used to do their baptisms. I've never regretted a life with Jesus; life has always been richer, deeper and fuller because of it. About Me: Ha that's a funny question, and a popular one today. Well, if you really want to know "all about me" you will have to meet me. For starters I am hard to put in simple categories and often find myself tumbling between labels; i.e. introverted and extroverted, strong and weak, intuitive yet a rationalist, introspective and social, unique and individual yet needing people and empathetic. I belong to and am part of the Way and that is probably the most defining important part of my being. (Acts 24:14) As a God lover in the Way of Jesus Christ I long to see and embrace all things and people in his love for his glory. Creative people and places energize me. I enjoy and appreciate art and artists and like to contribute and collaborate in making my own art at times. I need my own time and spend a lot of time in contemplation- this is where I get recharged and new vision and vitality for life. A con of my personality is my ill attempts to understand everything about everything. At the same time I also get energy from others and love to be sociable. I make matrix like connections in my mind and although my comments often are perceived as random too me they are very connected to something. To me connection and harmony are very important and I believe the truth brings that out. The last few years have been filled with learning, studying and meeting wonderful people. Copenhagen, Escanaba, Nagasaki, and now back to Minneapolis! So excited to learn, grow and finish my last year at university! Call: I feel strongly called by the Lord to work and give myself as missionary of love to the Japanese people. As the Lord leads I hope to take a missionary assignment through ELCA Global Mission teaching English and serving in congregational mission and leadership in Japan. Eventually I would like to serve as an apostolic worker planting boiler rooms (missional/monastic communities) around the Japanese archipelago with a bunch of other Jesus lovers in international, incarnational bands of friends. About this blog: This blog is for my Church Administration and Personal Finance class. I'm looking forward to interesting and practical conversation and learning that will help develop my leadership and organizational skills for however and whatever takes shape out of the Lord's call.

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  1. spencer, no information has proven that homosexuality is based purely on environmental factors either.  most psychologists or neuroscientists or whatever have come to believe that several different factors affect sexual orientation.  it seems to me like your arguments are based merely off of environmental factors, but obviously this cannot be the case.  lesbian couples don’t raise lesbians, gay couples don’t raise gay children.  single fathers don’t raise lesbians, neither do single mothers raise gay sons.  it’s just like straight couples don’t always raise straight children.  i personally believe that multiple factors affect orientation.  i also find your denial of gay feelings as a nonreality to be rather insensitive.  god created everything, therefore, he created the circumstances through which these children became gay, either physiological or envinronmental.  to deny someone’s right to acknowledge feelings is a denial of expression and life.
    also, i found that your allusion to the fact that nature makes homosexuality wrong to be incorrect.  nature is what creates or influences sexual attraction.  you know, those little things called hormones.
    your outright denial of homosexuality is actually rather preposterous to me.  even the most conservative of priests or members of religious hierarchy acknowledge homosexuality as valid.  i don’t know what reason you have to deny them.  i mean, doesn’t it acknowledge homosexuality in the bible?  it never denies that it exists, it just states that it is wrong…which, once again, i don’t agree with. 
    hahaha, and i have never been involved in a homosexual relationship, i am very much in love with DAN…therefore, not a lesbian.  i personally just feel that if i have the ability to be in love and feel strong natural feelings for someone else, then gay people truly feel this way as well because gay people are people like everyone else.  this whole gay/straight issue is going to be argued until the day we all die, but i feel like we will all look back on it in fifty years and feel that we are being absolutely ridiculous.
    altogether, i’ve found you contradict yourself many times throughout your comment.  sometimes you will state that homosexuality itself is sinful, while other times you state it is the acts that are incorrect.  if you truly believe that homosexuality in itself is sinful, then that truly is intolerance because you are judging someone based on something they cannot prevent nor should have to change.  you often said that gay feelings should be changed, but why?  if it is not against god’s “word” to have gay feelings, then why must one change them.  from your entire comment, you allude to the fact that homosexuality is altogether wrong because you desire god to change how you feel.  i personally feel that a ban on gay marriage wouldn’t only be wrong in regards to humanitarianism but also constituionally.  i mean, if people base a ban on gay marriage on religion, they are violating the first ammendment, but we haven’t really approached that subject, so let’s not.
    i know about your deep respect for the bible and i commend you for it, but it seems like this is the only source on which you rely.  because of your religious beliefs, this is understandable, but it’s time for many people to start interpreting the scriptures and trusting feelings about them rather than relying solely on the words. 
    i really don’t think this argument is going anywhere because you are arguing from a religious and biblically literal standpoint while i am arguing from my personal views and with logic on my side.  my opinions about homosexuality are not based at all on the bible, while yours are, so we are probably never going to agree on this.

  2. From what the person comment was above mine, I just want to say, just keep in mind, everybody has different beliefs. Don’t try to make them change their beliefs, the only two people that can is themselves or God. They are going to have to want to change. That is just a friendly reminder from me.

  3. Sarah,
         I don’t disagree with you that it is probable that there could be more then just enviromental factors effecting the development of homosexuality.  However your anylisis of the “eviromentale theory” is weak(i don’t mean that to hurt).  Obviously it is much more complex then any of the factors you listed.  However with every homosexual I know personally, every one I have heard testimony of- out and proud, questioning or ex-gay- have gone through a combination of the above factors or more.  Saying that God created the circumstances for people to become “gay” is like saying God created the circumstances to develop into a murderer.  Every circumstance and happening is not a product of God’s soverighn will, each human has free will and as a race cause alot of circumstances and happenings.  I still struggle with homosexual feelings, flat out.  I don’t deny it.  I am not ashamed of it either but I realize that acting on them takes me to place of isolation from God, a place I don’t want to be.
         Nature, what I mean is the countining of onces species.  Obviously if it was natural to be homosexual more then two percent of the population would be.  If everyone was homosexual our race would die out.
         I understand how ubsurd my statement that sexual orientation is only apperent might seem.  I would have thought it absurd even half a year ago.  However, as I have done more research I have come to realize that throughout the history of human kind those who commited same-sex acts were identified by those who do such things not a by an idenity of one who is such a thing.  The literal translation of the word we read as homosexual in the Bible is actually ‘male-bed-person.’  Being gay or being a homosexual has only since the last thirty plus years come to be something understood as an identity.  This is largly because of gay rights activists who know that if they can make people become a gay person and not have it be something some does they can remove it from pysiolocgical disorders and argue gay rights as a civil rights issue.  The former president of the American Pshyiatric Association removed homosexualiy from a list of disorders in the 70’s, a choice he now regrets. 
         Of course people who struggle with homosexuality have the same needs as other humans.  Their desires, however, are different because they are orientated toward the same-sex, obviously.  True love is concious, however, and not simply a feeling.  True Eros can only exist between a male and female.  In fact the word describes the love between the genders wereas Philla describes the love between brothers-brotherly love.  The love that God desighned people of the same sex to have for eachother.  And yes, I think discussions like this often seem to have people get so caught up as the they seem to miss the point.  If you weren’t a Christian I wouldn’t go on like this.
         My understanding of homosexuality in that context is acting out on it not the feelings.  I am sorry if this was misleading.  No one is sinning by having feelings.  No one has to change.  Change is a reality for me because of how God is working in me to discover my own masculinity.  My dissipating homosexul attractions are only a side effect.  Speaking of change is only relevent to Christians who struggle with homosexuality (other religions with like views) but not the masses.  I would not suggest that to any non-Christian.  People shouldn’t seek the change so much, they should seek God and let God be God. 
         I am not only relying on the Bible but also my own personal exprieances, the exprieancs of my friends and others who have born tesitmony.  To say that logic is only on your side is not true.  My opinions are also logical and reasonalbe. 
       Taking advice from my friend I will acknowledge that we may never change are opinions.  However my opinons have been quite molten for the last couple of years so something new might happen, a new exprienace  might happen that parts of my opinion might change.  That is not the point really though.  The point is not winning an argument, or shouting opinions but being Christ and love for the world.  Of course we fail in this but by the grace of God we can get back up and keep persuing.  You don’t have homosexual struggles so it is not an issue to deal with you internally, also it is very difficult for you to understand were I am coming from since you never have struggled with homosexuality to the extent that I have (I presume).  Nevertheless if your conviction to defend the afflicted means love the homosexual, espcially in such a non-excpeting enviroment as khs, and fight for their cause is truely out of what you feel is love it must be a good thing.  My ecouragement to you to pursue Christ in all things.  My hope is that throughout of the rest of the time we have with this year I may get know you more and pherhaps even have brother and sister moments in our Lord. 

  4. It makes me actually sad that you believe these things about yourself.  Sarah is right, you condradict yourself more times than i can count.  Have you looked at your life, have you actually seen how something affected you that made you have homosexual feelings?  If you don’t see how it has then i don’t know how you can say that what you feel is wrong. 

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