Monthly Archives: August 2006




You Are 40% Impulsive

You’re a pretty stable and serious person. You don’t take things lightly.
This doesn’t mean you can’t have fun – you just have fun responsibly.
You definitely have a spontaneous side, but you only let loose when it’s appropriate.

     I have been feeling alot lately.  We seem to not be able to help this reality as humans, to feel.  Like tonight at my friend Kevin’s house I could feel his leather coach its coolness its natural feel to the body.  The ice cold water I had at copper rock I had when getting done with my walk there. To feel the oncome of autum in the tonights summer wind.  The agonizing headache I had today because of dehyrdation.  The touch I made with God’s Spirit as spent time in prayer.  Feelings the pages of a book at kevings just to get a sense for the glossy pictures.  To feel the joy of the Lord throughout the day.  To feel the touch He has had on my life not just today but since I have known Him.  To feel frustration at a practice tonight- most likely the reality of spiritual warfare.  To feel that all my life is in the hands of God, the impressions of my past, the present time and every moment after that.  To feel that God is, that He is love and that He loves me and everyone and wants to them to be aware of that love so it can grow and spread. 

     What are feelings.  Why do we feel.  Do we wittness their reality or let them be our reality?  Why so often do we let them take us over as if we did not have the ability to negelct, rebuke or forsake them- for not all feelings are good.  When we feel the earth beneath our feet and realize that we are spinning through the solar system at an extreme speed.  What is the significance, why.  Why us? why humans why people why, why do I feel.  What is more.

     In our minds we recognize our feelings.  Do our feelings come from within our minds?  Why do we replay times when our feelings have been hurt are more so that hurtful feelings have hit us.  Why do they pit us down?  Why do they make us suffering.  Why suffering?  Why do we feel joyful.  Why do we laugh.  Is love a feelings or something more.  Peace- a reality or a feelings or both. 

     Why does our heart ache.  Why does it rejoice?  What do we mean when we say are heart-clearly not our literal heart.  A symbol of love.  We were certainlty inteded to love.  When then do we inflict suffering- suffering in ourselves in others.  Why do we act unlovely.  Why so often are we selfish- yes so very often.  Why do we do what we know we aught not do.  Does this come from within us.  Does something plauge us from without?  What is that how is that why is that?  Why would that?  Clearly it happens something outhere, inhere around us in our thoughts tricks us into living for ourselves out of step with love and others and God. 

     More?  What is soul, what is spirit.  Is there more to life then this.  Is there something beyond.  Why do I expriance the unexplainable.  Why is irrational, illogical true.  What is faith.  Faith seems to unify reality.  its not so irratinoal or illogical.  it seems to make sense.  but why, why are we here.  to love, surely.  why do i fail at loving.  are we plauged.  do we need a cure.  i need a cure.  i need healing i have been wounding.  i need love, i need to give love.  i need God.  how do we do that, love thing without getting ourselves in the way.  is God part of this.  Jesus cured me. gave me love, loved me and teaches me to love others.  things fall into place.  things make sense.  love. peace. joy.  these are real- not just feelings that come and go but ongoing realities.  if i stay in step with Him who came to set us free to come in us to love us and lead us to love others.  Father, Son and Holy Spirit loving eachother and us and all creation.  what good news.  will you call Jesus?  will you let him fix you, for good. i mean He will fix you ongoing in your life.  God, your Father doing what a  Father does fathering us.  sometimes fun sometimes not so fun but good.  good indeed. 

feel.  unloved.                                                               feel love.

feel. worthless.                      Encounter God.                feel. joy.

feel chaotic.                                                                   feel peace.

                                   and there are more good things with God.


Well, well.  hmm, where do i start.  how about last week.  no car lately becuase my brother has to use it since his in a shop getting repaired, or at least waiting to be.  i had an audition for kantori next year of which i am able to participate.  i am very grateful for this because it pretty much determined if choir was something i was going to be doing next year and it was definently something i wanted  to do.  recently schedual conflicts have made my schudeal change so now my schudal looks like this.


1 chemistry

2 socialogy/photography

3 kantori

4 ap psychology

5 lunch

6-8 RSA

     including; Chinese language and culture, acting 1, seinor english (world lit.), traditional ballroom, international folk dance, ap art history, and playmakers collective. 

i am very excited about the year to come of which God has blessed me with.  i am also thankful for the job i have at the pig.  the people and atmosphere is really a great place to be. 

peace and God bless to all,





You Are 84% Pure

You’re so innocent, it’s almost like you’re not human.
Taking this test is probably the naughtiest thing you’ve done in a while!


generous. everyday.

>> Video Clip (WMV)I don’t care what kind of car you have—92 percent of the people in the world that see us driving our cars think…rich. Somewhere around a billion people in the world don’t even have clean water. Have you eaten today? Somewhere around 800 million people won’t eat today; 300 million of them are kids. Every couple seconds, somebody dies of hunger. How much money do you have on you right now? Around a billion people in the world live on less than one dollar a day. Experts say that in order to provide water, basic health, and nutrition for everyone in the world, it would cost around $20 billion, which is how much Americans spend in one year on ice cream. (See 1 Timothy 6:17–19.) from

DVD by Flannel

 zondervan. everyday.

You Are 58% Grown Up, 42% Kid

You’ve grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you’re emotionally mature.
You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.



God. everyday.

Long before us and before this world and before anything existed, there was God. That means that even before there was time, there was God. He existed outside of anything we could imagine or hope for. There was never “not God” and there never will be “not God.” The Bible tells us that the night and the day, the things by which we measure time and days and months and years, were created by God. Even the time by which we falsely try to measure God was his idea.

From The Deity Formerly Known as God
by Jarrett Stevens

from zondervan. everyday.

Hopefully we can move into some fuller discussion on this topic.  I posted this earlier this year with sad results= no discussion.  Hopefully this will give “us” something to think about before the academic year starts anew.  In the meantime, Peace.

The Creation of Light

God spoke: “Light!”

And light appeared.

God saw that light was good

and separated light from dark.

God named the light Day,

he named the dark Night.

It was evening, it was morning–

Day One.”- Genesis 1:3-5

If you focus in on the first verse we realize one more thing, the very awesome power in God’s word. He spoke light and it came to be. Previously the universe was a place of inky blackness void of all color. Black. Visually, nothing. But then light. Red, green, gamma, and radio. Suddenly the universe is filled with photons- pockets of energy in the nature of light. To contrast this darkness becomes realized. Light is contrasted with darkness. This was Day one. The first day of yin and yang. The first day of creation. The most fundamental nature of the material universe is defined here. For were there is light there is heat. Hot and cold. Light and dark. Color and black. Energy and stop. Motion and absolute zero. God sustains this light to shine on us. Daylight gives us the opportunity to do much which is not so easy in darkness. Light reveals the nature of things and allows us to see. God’s Word is a light to our path and a lamp to our feet revealing where we are going and who we are. God is light and when the New Jerusalem comes to being there will be no need the sun nor the moon for God will rule all of us and shed light upon us.

What does light mean to you?

In the Mean time things to think about light

“It establishes the speed limit for the entire universe.

Its speed is the only constant in the universe.

It is outside of time.

It never ages.

It anchors the laws of relativity.

It is both a wave and particle.

It allows us to see.

It comforts us with its presence and depresses us by its absence.

It conveys the energy of warmth that allow us to live.

It consumes darkness but itself is never consumed by darkness.

It is mentioned as the first thing God created after the heavens and the earth.

It, apparently, has a divine aspect to its nature.” (Richard A. Swenson, M.D.)

Contemplating these things, what does light reveal to us about God?

How does this make you feel?

Describe a moment were light has made you feel good.

This is meant to promote conversation.

You Are 24% Shy

You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.


Your Geek Profile:

Gamer Geekiness: High
SciFi Geekiness: High
Music Geekiness: Moderate
Academic Geekiness: Low
Geekiness in Love: Low
Fashion Geekiness: None
General Geekiness: None
Internet Geekiness: None
Movie Geekiness: None


You Are 48% Bipolar

You’re a bit moody, and at times, your moods can be a bit extreme.
It’s up to you to decide if you’re simply dramatic… or slightly bipolar.
I guess?  naw, i don’t really think so.