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You Are 40% Impulsive

You’re a pretty stable and serious person. You don’t take things lightly.
This doesn’t mean you can’t have fun – you just have fun responsibly.
You definitely have a spontaneous side, but you only let loose when it’s appropriate.


     I have been feeling alot lately.  We seem to not be able to help this reality as humans, to feel.  Like tonight at my friend Kevin’s house I could feel his leather coach its coolness its natural feel to the body.  The ice cold water I had at copper rock I had when getting done with my walk there. To feel the oncome of autum in the tonights summer wind.  The agonizing headache I had today because of dehyrdation.  The touch I made with God’s Spirit as spent time in prayer.  Feelings the pages of a book at kevings just to get a sense for the glossy pictures.  To feel the joy of the Lord throughout the day.  To feel the touch He has had on my life not just today but since I have known Him.  To feel frustration at a practice tonight- most likely the reality of spiritual warfare.  To feel that all my life is in the hands of God, the impressions of my past, the present time and every moment after that.  To feel that God is, that He is love and that He loves me and everyone and wants to them to be aware of that love so it can grow and spread. 


     What are feelings.  Why do we feel.  Do we wittness their reality or let them be our reality?  Why so often do we let them take us over as if we did not have the ability to negelct, rebuke or forsake them- for not all feelings are good.  When we feel the earth beneath our feet and realize that we are spinning through the solar system at an extreme speed.  What is the significance, why.  Why us? why humans why people why, why do I feel.  What is more.


     In our minds we recognize our feelings.  Do our feelings come from within our minds?  Why do we replay times when our feelings have been hurt are more so that hurtful feelings have hit us.  Why do they pit us down?  Why do they make us suffering.  Why suffering?  Why do we feel joyful.  Why do we laugh.  Is love a feelings or something more.  Peace- a reality or a feelings or both. 


     Why does our heart ache.  Why does it rejoice?  What do we mean when we say are heart-clearly not our literal heart.  A symbol of love.  We were certainlty inteded to love.  When then do we inflict suffering- suffering in ourselves in others.  Why do we act unlovely.  Why so often are we selfish- yes so very often.  Why do we do what we know we aught not do.  Does this come from within us.  Does something plauge us from without?  What is that how is that why is that?  Why would that?  Clearly it happens something outhere, inhere around us in our thoughts tricks us into living for ourselves out of step with love and others and God. 


     More?  What is soul, what is spirit.  Is there more to life then this.  Is there something beyond.  Why do I expriance the unexplainable.  Why is irrational, illogical true.  What is faith.  Faith seems to unify reality.  its not so irratinoal or illogical.  it seems to make sense.  but why, why are we here.  to love, surely.  why do i fail at loving.  are we plauged.  do we need a cure.  i need a cure.  i need healing i have been wounding.  i need love, i need to give love.  i need God.  how do we do that, love thing without getting ourselves in the way.  is God part of this.  Jesus cured me. gave me love, loved me and teaches me to love others.  things fall into place.  things make sense.  love. peace. joy.  these are real- not just feelings that come and go but ongoing realities.  if i stay in step with Him who came to set us free to come in us to love us and lead us to love others.  Father, Son and Holy Spirit loving eachother and us and all creation.  what good news.  will you call Jesus?  will you let him fix you, for good. i mean He will fix you ongoing in your life.  God, your Father doing what a  Father does fathering us.  sometimes fun sometimes not so fun but good.  good indeed. 


feel.  unloved.                                                               feel love.


feel. worthless.                      Encounter God.                feel. joy.


feel chaotic.                                                                   feel peace.


                                   and there are more good things with God.

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About minuiperiannath

Name: Spencer Wentland College: North Central University Year: Senior Major:Intercultural Studies My story of meeting Jesus in short: Not many weeks after I was born my parents baptized me into the Christian faith at First English Lutheran Church in my hometown, Appleton, WI. There they renewed their promises to renounce the devil and his ways, the world and evil and raise me the same way teaching me to love and fear the Lord, the Lord's Prayer, the Ten Commandments, the Creeds and when of reading age to put the Holy Bible in my hands and all the while, with the church community, instruct me in the Christian faith. My parents weren't perfect but they did fulfill the vows they made at my baptism. I had my own more personal experience with the Lord around the age of seven when I followed Jesus out of the Gospels to a "quiet, lonely place" in my backyard with the hope to do whatever Jesus did there. Without realizing it or ever being taught how to "receive Jesus into your heart" it happened quite like that even seeing a mental vision of Jesus and knowing I need to welcome him into my heart and let him sit on the throne of my life. I've never been the same since then and the Lord has kept his promise to be with me "always." I confirmed what my parents chose for me in a public confession of faith and the ritual of believer's baptism at a local swimming school where the Assemblies of God church my mom attends used to do their baptisms. I've never regretted a life with Jesus; life has always been richer, deeper and fuller because of it. About Me: Ha that's a funny question, and a popular one today. Well, if you really want to know "all about me" you will have to meet me. For starters I am hard to put in simple categories and often find myself tumbling between labels; i.e. introverted and extroverted, strong and weak, intuitive yet a rationalist, introspective and social, unique and individual yet needing people and empathetic. I belong to and am part of the Way and that is probably the most defining important part of my being. (Acts 24:14) As a God lover in the Way of Jesus Christ I long to see and embrace all things and people in his love for his glory. Creative people and places energize me. I enjoy and appreciate art and artists and like to contribute and collaborate in making my own art at times. I need my own time and spend a lot of time in contemplation- this is where I get recharged and new vision and vitality for life. A con of my personality is my ill attempts to understand everything about everything. At the same time I also get energy from others and love to be sociable. I make matrix like connections in my mind and although my comments often are perceived as random too me they are very connected to something. To me connection and harmony are very important and I believe the truth brings that out. The last few years have been filled with learning, studying and meeting wonderful people. Copenhagen, Escanaba, Nagasaki, and now back to Minneapolis! So excited to learn, grow and finish my last year at university! Call: I feel strongly called by the Lord to work and give myself as missionary of love to the Japanese people. As the Lord leads I hope to take a missionary assignment through ELCA Global Mission teaching English and serving in congregational mission and leadership in Japan. Eventually I would like to serve as an apostolic worker planting boiler rooms (missional/monastic communities) around the Japanese archipelago with a bunch of other Jesus lovers in international, incarnational bands of friends. About this blog: This blog is for my Church Administration and Personal Finance class. I'm looking forward to interesting and practical conversation and learning that will help develop my leadership and organizational skills for however and whatever takes shape out of the Lord's call.

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