Monthly Archives: July 2007

“Screaming Infidelities” and remincince


sorry if i can’t spell.  dashboard confessional has been like a mantra to certian high school memoies that are in the outside the door.  i am still in the door way, in beween then and now.  i really don’t have a lot to say just that listening to that song brought back a lot of old memories, old friends and times of good fun. 



The heart of God


“David said to Solomon: “My son, I had it in my heart to build a house for the Name of the LORD my God.”-1 Chronicles 22:7


David had it in his heart to build a temple of the Lord.  As Christians when we realize that our bodies are temples of Holy God it brings the idea of a temple-heart a whole new kind of picture.  God has been speaking me about his heart a lot lately, espeicially at camp.  Last summer God directed me to begin reading the book Wild At Heart.  Taking me till this summer to finally finish a generous orthodoxy and pick this up I now realize that even in this delay it has all been in God’s timing. 

     At pre-service prayer at camp God kept putting it in my heart to pray for the hearts of people, that we would be people like David-people “after God’s own heart.”  At the Wensday night service God spoke to me as we danced and marched into the presence of God.  As others have said about God moving at camp He didn’t meat my expectations, he broke them.  Wensday night I expected to feel God in some deep way, to get goosbumps, maybe cry I wasn’t exactly sure.  I was open but I expected to be emotional and for me it wasn’t.  But in the quite of my inner delight in God he spoke.  There was no feelings just his still voice, “meet me tommorow.”  He would clarify that he wanted me to just listen, to contemplate and meditate over him.  So Thursday I went down to the dock with my Bible and started to read Scripture out loud, to the water, the trees, the wind the sun light.  Not that they were listening of course, but I just wanted to realize God’s breath and voice in everything around me.  And then it began to rain.  At first I was like oh know I want to finish reading this Scripture passage and then read this but what the rain did is stilled me, it made me quit trying to take control and just lot God take control.  When I realize this, that the rain too was good I got up and danced.  I almost jumped into the lake. Praising God I sat down and began to listen.  The rain lasted little and then the sun light came out again.  In that moment God spoke and showed me his heart.  I wont go into to much detail (mostly words can’t describe) but God took me deeper, revealed to me that secret place in his heart were he loves me, the world and were we can meet.  It was awesome. 

     That night the charge was “will you die for the heart of your king.”  Reggie took us through the amazing story of a Scottish warrior that died for his king and took the heart of his kind with him.  It was a pretty wild and intense story but when you think that he did that for his earlthy lord what does that mean to us who serve the Lord of the Universe, the King of kings and the Lord of lords.  Its just so amazing.  Right then and there I made a pledge that I would die by living for the heart of my king and if neccsary I would die for him.  After all, he is the King and not only so but he is the King who died for us.  Praise his name forever. 

     So, I have began to pick up the book Wild At Heart as I so nicely finshed the previous book within the week after camp.  I have begun to realize that God is taking me on a spiritual journey and inner pilgrmage; not just to seek his heart but in doing so find mine.  The heart of a man who will serve God,  not just a servent but as a holy knight pledged to his cause to battle the spirtual forces of evil, live the adventure of the great commission and to chase God till we meet and who knows someday God may want me to chase a women to mary.  Well, the whole knight thing might sound corny to you but I know it is not to me and my God.  That is our God, the One and Only.  I want to do something for him, in him, with him, by him that will shake the fabric of the “things as they are” stagnent atmophere that most walk in everyday.  Who knows what God has in mind but I am a man of his heart and will seek him, yea while I am but in my youth. 


Praise his name forever and blessed be the heart of our God!

“that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.
       O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.”- Psalm 30:12

Spencer Lake


So I can finally write about camp.  well the experiance was phenomenal like useual.  I could definently say that this was one of the two best weeks of camp I have ever been to.  I had great time with God, with old friends, family, new friends.  its good, He is good


be good, be true,





more on this later



I read this daily meditation and thought so much of it that I am going to share it.  There is this awful talk out there in the world of spiritual/religuos disccussion about useing God to get blessing (Christian circles) and making God or being your own god into and for your own purposes (New Age/non-Christian).  This is in direct contradiction to both what God has revealed to us through Scripture and Nature.  Here is Mr.Warren’s thoughts on it.

life. everyday.

The purpose of your life is far greater than your own personal fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. It’s far greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams and ambitions. If you want to know why you were placed on this planet, you must begin with God. You were born by his purpose and for his purpose.

Many people try to use God for their own self-actualization, but that is a reversal of nature and is doomed to failure. You were made for God, not vice versa, and life is about letting God use you for his purposes, not your using him for your own purpose.
from  Zondervan Homepage  everyday.