Yes, I Trust You!

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This past summer has been full of spirtual backslide, doublemindedness and sloth.  Although I have repeatedly come to realize these things in my m ind I could never move the stone to get past them.

    The idle time of the summer drew me away from personal time with the Lord into distracting nad unbenificial habits of slot that soon had me almost spending more time in cyber space instead of real space.  In spite of the fact that I didn’t realize it at the time, my idleness led to a lukewarmness in my mind.  This environment of a lkuewarm self was a breeding ground for Satan’s deception.  My unspirtual state was blind and unequiped to recognize the lies of the Enemy.  Therefore my heart became dull to the movement of the Spirit and the Word of the Lord.  I slid back to old doubts and insecurities that have left me emotionaly entangled and spirtually crippled.  But now more.

     Yesterday morning (Sep. 2nd) at the international church service I came forward for prayer.  The pastor gave four simple words to hold onto and let the Spirt speek into them; yes, sorry, please and thank you.  I knew the word for me was yes.  Yes God.  Yes Jesus.  Yes You not with half my m ind but with allm y mind, not with just my mind but with my heart, all my soul, and my strenghth.  And today in the Word “Do not let you hearts be troubled.  Trust in God; trust also in me.”  -Jesus (John 14:1, NIV).  And so God has opened my mind.  He has opened the eyes of my troubled heart to see his peace, to gently heed his call “Trust God; trust also in me.”  He has answered what I said yes to. The prhase “Yes…God” is in openness to him but it is “Yes I trust you God where I respond to the Spirit’s call.

     I see now that the doubts I had did not come from satan’s deception but the doubts that were a tone blocking my way made me stagnatn and a breding groud for satan’s lies.  The doubts were first, the doubts kept me as still, lazy water and then came the lies.  But I no longer doubt, I realize the stone was never for me to move but for for Him.  I trust now that other stones will be removed.  My mind is no longer a place of doubt but of faith, promise and trust.

          By His Spirit,
                “Yes I trust you!”

 

Grace and peace,

Spencer

About minuiperiannath

Name: Spencer Wentland College: North Central University Year: Senior Major:Intercultural Studies My story of meeting Jesus in short: Not many weeks after I was born my parents baptized me into the Christian faith at First English Lutheran Church in my hometown, Appleton, WI. There they renewed their promises to renounce the devil and his ways, the world and evil and raise me the same way teaching me to love and fear the Lord, the Lord's Prayer, the Ten Commandments, the Creeds and when of reading age to put the Holy Bible in my hands and all the while, with the church community, instruct me in the Christian faith. My parents weren't perfect but they did fulfill the vows they made at my baptism. I had my own more personal experience with the Lord around the age of seven when I followed Jesus out of the Gospels to a "quiet, lonely place" in my backyard with the hope to do whatever Jesus did there. Without realizing it or ever being taught how to "receive Jesus into your heart" it happened quite like that even seeing a mental vision of Jesus and knowing I need to welcome him into my heart and let him sit on the throne of my life. I've never been the same since then and the Lord has kept his promise to be with me "always." I confirmed what my parents chose for me in a public confession of faith and the ritual of believer's baptism at a local swimming school where the Assemblies of God church my mom attends used to do their baptisms. I've never regretted a life with Jesus; life has always been richer, deeper and fuller because of it. About Me: Ha that's a funny question, and a popular one today. Well, if you really want to know "all about me" you will have to meet me. For starters I am hard to put in simple categories and often find myself tumbling between labels; i.e. introverted and extroverted, strong and weak, intuitive yet a rationalist, introspective and social, unique and individual yet needing people and empathetic. I belong to and am part of the Way and that is probably the most defining important part of my being. (Acts 24:14) As a God lover in the Way of Jesus Christ I long to see and embrace all things and people in his love for his glory. Creative people and places energize me. I enjoy and appreciate art and artists and like to contribute and collaborate in making my own art at times. I need my own time and spend a lot of time in contemplation- this is where I get recharged and new vision and vitality for life. A con of my personality is my ill attempts to understand everything about everything. At the same time I also get energy from others and love to be sociable. I make matrix like connections in my mind and although my comments often are perceived as random too me they are very connected to something. To me connection and harmony are very important and I believe the truth brings that out. The last few years have been filled with learning, studying and meeting wonderful people. Copenhagen, Escanaba, Nagasaki, and now back to Minneapolis! So excited to learn, grow and finish my last year at university! Call: I feel strongly called by the Lord to work and give myself as missionary of love to the Japanese people. As the Lord leads I hope to take a missionary assignment through ELCA Global Mission teaching English and serving in congregational mission and leadership in Japan. Eventually I would like to serve as an apostolic worker planting boiler rooms (missional/monastic communities) around the Japanese archipelago with a bunch of other Jesus lovers in international, incarnational bands of friends. About this blog: This blog is for my Church Administration and Personal Finance class. I'm looking forward to interesting and practical conversation and learning that will help develop my leadership and organizational skills for however and whatever takes shape out of the Lord's call.

3 responses »

  1. RYC:  Contacting the division manager isn’t an option.   He’s the one who put “Shelly” in the job to begin with.   He isn’t too open to being told he’s wrong.   He certainly wouldn’t be open to being told he’s incredibly, very wrong.
    But Thanks Anyway,
    Lonnie

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