looking forward to the horizon line.

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disturbing tides of emotions keep pulling me
in and out
like  a man caught between the rip currents
in an ocean
murky darkness surrounds me
deep darkness covers my eyes
as I look
trying to make sense of all of this around me
his hands, I want to hold
there is a gravity that pulls me into him
yet I cannot move
my soul is chasing the wind
and all thoughts seem futile
my face is downcast
oh soul within me
why is are you so downcast
why wont you trust God
why wont you put your hope in him. 
is there no escape to this madness.
i look up, the word of hope beckoning me.
“Spencer, I love you.
I believe in you. 
Trust me and come home to my arms. 
There is an end to this madness
and here am I waiting to hold you,
to take you in.
You can do this.
Follow me.”
I sit reflecting
the words breaking into my mind
through all the agony and noise
the thick chaos is cut.
blistering confusion cannot consume me.
when I am in the fortress of my God. 
His word is a wall to defend against the thousands
against the thousands of marinating voices taunting me
lies and attacks ooze like green drool from their twisted mouths
but I am safe. 
and I see morning’s light beyond the edge of horizon.
with faith I see the new day
and believe the new man I am
in him forever. my joy and my salvation. 
I have found myself in God and him alone.
He alone is my rock and my refuge.
No other name can save
No other voice can claim to have created me
But his voice calls to me, and beckons me onward
in hope
in triumph
in faith
in victory
in love
through the cross. 
Amen.

About minuiperiannath

Name: Spencer Wentland College: North Central University Year: Senior Major:Intercultural Studies My story of meeting Jesus in short: Not many weeks after I was born my parents baptized me into the Christian faith at First English Lutheran Church in my hometown, Appleton, WI. There they renewed their promises to renounce the devil and his ways, the world and evil and raise me the same way teaching me to love and fear the Lord, the Lord's Prayer, the Ten Commandments, the Creeds and when of reading age to put the Holy Bible in my hands and all the while, with the church community, instruct me in the Christian faith. My parents weren't perfect but they did fulfill the vows they made at my baptism. I had my own more personal experience with the Lord around the age of seven when I followed Jesus out of the Gospels to a "quiet, lonely place" in my backyard with the hope to do whatever Jesus did there. Without realizing it or ever being taught how to "receive Jesus into your heart" it happened quite like that even seeing a mental vision of Jesus and knowing I need to welcome him into my heart and let him sit on the throne of my life. I've never been the same since then and the Lord has kept his promise to be with me "always." I confirmed what my parents chose for me in a public confession of faith and the ritual of believer's baptism at a local swimming school where the Assemblies of God church my mom attends used to do their baptisms. I've never regretted a life with Jesus; life has always been richer, deeper and fuller because of it. About Me: Ha that's a funny question, and a popular one today. Well, if you really want to know "all about me" you will have to meet me. For starters I am hard to put in simple categories and often find myself tumbling between labels; i.e. introverted and extroverted, strong and weak, intuitive yet a rationalist, introspective and social, unique and individual yet needing people and empathetic. I belong to and am part of the Way and that is probably the most defining important part of my being. (Acts 24:14) As a God lover in the Way of Jesus Christ I long to see and embrace all things and people in his love for his glory. Creative people and places energize me. I enjoy and appreciate art and artists and like to contribute and collaborate in making my own art at times. I need my own time and spend a lot of time in contemplation- this is where I get recharged and new vision and vitality for life. A con of my personality is my ill attempts to understand everything about everything. At the same time I also get energy from others and love to be sociable. I make matrix like connections in my mind and although my comments often are perceived as random too me they are very connected to something. To me connection and harmony are very important and I believe the truth brings that out. The last few years have been filled with learning, studying and meeting wonderful people. Copenhagen, Escanaba, Nagasaki, and now back to Minneapolis! So excited to learn, grow and finish my last year at university! Call: I feel strongly called by the Lord to work and give myself as missionary of love to the Japanese people. As the Lord leads I hope to take a missionary assignment through ELCA Global Mission teaching English and serving in congregational mission and leadership in Japan. Eventually I would like to serve as an apostolic worker planting boiler rooms (missional/monastic communities) around the Japanese archipelago with a bunch of other Jesus lovers in international, incarnational bands of friends. About this blog: This blog is for my Church Administration and Personal Finance class. I'm looking forward to interesting and practical conversation and learning that will help develop my leadership and organizational skills for however and whatever takes shape out of the Lord's call.

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